Feb 10, 2019

In Memory of my Mom



     Its been a long climb back up to where I can see light in the sky and a future on the horizon.
                                    
                                  
I have been absent from myself.


Paralyzed by the reality
pained by the loss I feel
Too many tears to see. 

Staring blankly and crying endlessly.
 I retreated for my sanity.
 

My life has been altered significantly.
  I lost my Mom 
when my Mom lost her way.

I hold the past now closer to my heart
In an effort to paint new pictures 
  from old memories.
Thanyou for being my Mom. I will miss you for all eternity.






                                                                





Take Time















This is a close up shot of one of the many beautiful Iris's that grew in the flower bed next to the Tiger Lillies.
The flowers grew right under my nose.
 I planted them there so that I would see the beauty of their full colorful display as I passed by in the process of coming and going from the front door of the house. 
Somehow in spite of myself and my own good intentions, I would often blindly pass the flower beds while stuck in my head. I was just too busy to see.

Said the Domestic Engineer to herself
Schedule ME time into my every day- 
Remind myself on a regular basis!









 I pulled into the driveway at home and shut off the car.
 I lay my head forward to rest it on the steering wheel but for a moment
 because a moment too long might find me sleeping at the wheel.
 
Twas the end of a very busy day and the start of an even busier evening.

 I was tired. I was hungry. I was ornery.
I sighed as I lifted my head from the wheel.
I had to march on. Time limits are real.

I loaded up my body with grocery bags and soldiered towards the house.
I suddenly became acutely aware of the warm, breeze that blew.
I was overcome with the warmth of the sun beaming on my face.
I was awed by the vision of color radiating at my feet.

I stopped in my tracks.

This was my reminder that "Me time" matters.
Put down the groceries girl.  You gotta get at it!

 I knelt down beside the Irises.
Their beauty overwhelmed me.
 The moment captured me.
 I captured the memory..


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